Family

I just realized my new blog doesn't have any photo's of my family and after the somewhat graphic photo's of our little fur-baby's recent tragic accident, I thought I would post some cheerful pics of the rest of my clan:)

Our little Diaper Diva was prancing around in high heels one day, talking on Chris's cell phone so I had to take a picture...it was pretty hysterical.

My poor dog!

We decided to take our daughter and two fur-baby's to the park Sunday afternoon for some family fun, fresh air and a good run for the dogs. We took Brooklyn in her little tikes wagon (which she loves riding in), stopped for some iced coffee's and headed to the park a few blocks away. The weather was beautiful and Brooklyn was enjoying the swings and the slides while Roxy explored some trails independently and Deja followed some scents with that nose of hers. Chris and I usually bring dog treats with us to the park and then at some point we will both stand on opposite ends of the field or park and let the dogs run back and forth between us for treats. It EXHAUSTS them, they love it and it's pretty entertaining to watch! So that's what we did but since Brooklyn was playing in the park, Chris was out in the field and I was in the park with Brooklyn. The park itself is enclosed by a 1 foot wood partition to keep all the bark maltch contained etc.

Roxy had been running back and forth for a while and then all of a sudden (and remember she is a boston terrier and she hauls butt when she runs........she's usually the fastest dog at any given dog park!) she misjudged the height of the wood partition and smacked into it at 30 mph!!! She hit it so hard that it knocked the wind out of her, broke her arm instantly and she was screaming like a hyena!! She was in absolute agony! I ran over to her and I could see that her arm was dangling freely out of her shoulder socket. It was loose and flacid and she was panic stricken! I picked her up and we headed home. She was fine while I carried her the 3 blocks home but as soon as I put her down she was yelping and screaming. Of course it happened on a Sunday and everything in town was closed so we got our neighbor to watch Brooklyn and Chris and I drove 40 minutes to the nearest 24 hour emergency vet clinic in the next town. It was pretty much $300 just to get in the door. Who knew a pet clinic that ALREADY PROVIDES emergency services would charge you "$60" because this is an "emergency" fee in addition to the exam fee (which is standard or course) $40, x-rays $170, sedation $90, pain patch $90, splint $100. Roxy was in a lot of pain so they gave her an injection for that and about 15 minutes later, she was laid out on the exam table....but at least she wasnt yelping in pain anymore.

Shortly after the medication kicked in, they came to take her away for x-rays. When the vet came back, he said it was broken and it was the worst kind of fracture a canine can acquire! They called it a "butterfly" fracture because in order to fix it, it is major surgery where they would use pins and plates on either side of the bone. The break was right above her elbow joint which made it even more difficult to fix and only an orthopedic surgeon could do it (the vet helping us didn't perform bone surgeries (only soft tissue surgeries) so he paged the orthopedic surgeon who looked at the x-rays the vet texted him on his iphone and said it looked like a complicated fracture so he headed home to open the x-rays up on his computer to get a better view. He phoned us back and we spoke with the surgeon over the phone directly. He was currently a resident (he still had many years of surgical experience though) but was not yet board certified and due to the complexity of the surgery, he himself disclosed he was not confident in performing the surgery therefore, referred us to a specialty clinic that had 2 board certified surgeons that did this type of surgery all the time. By this time our bill was already $600 and we hadn't even fixed the problem yet! He said he could do it for $2500 (but I didnt want a hack job done for cheap, only to have arthritis problems down the road and possible complications due to his lack of experience.

By this time it was 10pm so they splinted her broken arm, doped her up with pain meds and we took her home. Chris and I had to decide very quickly what we wanted to do. I wanted a second opinion at this highly recommended clinic however once I got home, I googled that clinic and all their prices were posted on their website. It was going to cost us another $250 just for the consult and the surgery was twice as much than at the first clinic. These guys charged almost $5000! We had some decisions to make rather quickly.

I spoke to my brother in Saskatchewan and he reminded me that city vets are notorious for ripping off city folk and encouraged me to call around to some of the more rural vets for prices and opinions. Everything is more expensive in BC than in SK.

We were torn between surgery and amputation because there are pros and cons to both obviously. Surgery has no guarantee's since she fractured it in such an odd spot but they did say arthritis was a guarantee in time. There were also no guarantee's on how functional that leg would be for her post op and if she would still be able to run the same. So we were trying to decide whether or not 3 healthy legs were better than 3 legs-plus a defective fourth one?!?!

I phoned the prestigious vet clinic that we were referred to and they said whether we had the surgery or amputated, it was $4500 regardless! We didnt even bother going to that clinic after we were aware of the cost and it seemed astronomical (especially with TWINS on the way and all the costs these baby's will create very shortly). We phoned the SPCA who gave us a list of local vets. The second vet I phoned said I could email their vet Roxy's x-ray photo's (we had them on CD-Rom) and he could tell me our options over the phone free of charge. Of course my MAC pooped out on me and kept opening the files in codes so I asked if I could bring the x-ray CD to their clinic. She told me to bring the dog and my x-rays and they would give me a surgical consult. We had 15 minutes to get there for their only open appt. so we dropped Brooklyn off and took Roxy to this other vet. Hallelujah, they were great!!! The vet was such a nice guy and laid out all the pros and cons to both our options. He was supportive of whichever decision we made and their prices were far more reasonable. The staff were sympathetic and compassionate and the vet even brought in one of his staff and her little tri-pod dog on three legs to show us that three legs are no big deal for canine's! Dogs adapt much quicker than people do. The surgery cost $1000 (it pays to shop around and do a bit of research).

The whole team at this clinic were great and we have now found our new long-term vet for both our dogs (we moved here last July so we hadn't picked a veterinarian yet).

After we decided to go with an amputation (many tears shed on both sides on this decision) they performed the surgery and phoned us at home once it was completed. It was just such a sad day because it's not like Roxy did anything wrong to acquire this awful injury.....she didn't run out into the road and get hit by a car or get attacked by another dog... I mean she was running at the park having the time of her life! So innocent, so sad and really, just a freak accident!!!!!

The surgeon phoned us to say she did well through surgery and that we could pick her up the next morning. We were also told she needs to lose at least 5 lbs (which we were aware of, lol. She always ends up eating our older dogs food too if she's too slow or so much as looks in the other direction.

We picked Roxy up from the vet this morning and my expectations of what she would look like turned out much better than expected. From a nursing stand point, her surgical incision looked clean, well approximated and perfect really. No exudate (ie. drainage, no puckers or lumps etc). She tried to walk across the room about 45 mins after we got her home this morning but fell on her face a few times before I could get to her fast enough to help her hold up her front end. She is a very active dog so sitting still is not her style. She has already taken many steps on 3 legs. She even jumped up on the couch before we could stop her and then she followed me after I went upstairs to check on our daughter and she made it up 4 stairs to the first landing...ultimately spilling onto her face though! Silly girl is supposed to be taking it easy for a few days but I can see she wont be idle for long and I'm willing to bet she walks a lot tomorrow with little assistance. We just have to keep her away from any stairs until she's heeled up. They said recovery can be anywhere from 1-2 weeks. She is such a trooper though and already trying to get from point A to point B. She's doing great! I just wish her breathing wasnt so labored from the trachea tube they inserted down her throat when they intubated her for surgery because it has caused her to be quite congested and irritated her throat a bit. I can hear some wet secretions in her chest so hopefully it resolves soon because I can tell the congestion, coughing and occasional sneezing is causing her anxiety. She cant really breathe out of her nose very well and boston's have a squished snout to begin with so if they aspirate or have to be intubated, they can struggle to breathe like they normally would until it resolves.

Im just so HAPPY that she is still with us.....and as the vet put it, "Dogs come with 3 legs and a spare", ha ha.

I can feel the baby's moving!

I can finally feel the baby's moving.....feels like a couple of little fish swimming around in there! ha ha. I felt a flutter at 11, 12 & 13 weeks but now that Im 14 weeks, there's no doubt about it, they are moving and I can feel it (the Dr. is dating me at 15 weeks though but hello, I know when I conceived! lol). When I was pregnant with my daughter, I felt first flutters at 16 weeks but with two baby's in my belly, its no surprise I can feel them sooner.....plus, I know what to look for after having had a baby already.

My favorite part about pregnancy is baby movement (there isn't much else I like about pregnancy to be honest) but baby kicks are heavenly! I remember when I was working 12 hour night shifts at the hospital when I was pregnant with Brooklyn....I would sit around (after all my night shift duties/checks were complete of course) with my hands permanently adhered to my belly with a perma-grin on my face and sometimes I would even catch myself giggling out loud. I loved it! I think I felt her baby kicks daily at about 26 weeks along so I think it's fair to say that by perhaps by 20-22 weeks I will feel these baby's on a daily basis! I cant wait!

PS. First belly pic coming soon.

questions?!?!?

My mind is consumed with all sorts of things....questions, questions and more questions??????

1. Cloth diapers (with disposable inserts) or disposable diapers? Which is more cost effective? Cloth means more laundry, more hassle & more headache!!

2. We need a bigger vehicle that can accommodate 3 car seats!....used Toyota Sienna or Honda Odyssey (leather interior or cloth!?)

3. Two cribs or one? (I have decided to buy two even though they will share the first few months)

4. An "Au Pair" or part-time nanny?

5. To pump or not to pump?

6. Video monitor?

7. Bar fridge upstairs?... so I dont have to walk up and down 15 stairs in the middle of the night for bottles etc.... especially since I will be recovering from a c-section! With twins and a toddler, it could make for a lot of trips up and down the stairs in the middle of the night!

8. What kind of bottles should I buy? The ones I used with my daughter were the playtex vented aire one's and each bottle has 5 pieces to it, so I plan to switch for that reason alone! That's way too many pieces when you need 20 bottles!

9. Double bottle warmer?

10. Sterilizer!?

11. Double or triple stroller?

12. Baby Names!?

13. Cost of formula and diapers? (even though I plan to breastfeed as much as I can)

We also have a million little reno's to do to the house before the baby's get here (not a lot as the house is only 8 years old but painting is so time consuming!). We have to paint the entire upstairs before we get new carpet's installed and we have been chipping away at it since July! My daughter's room & the laundry room are the only rooms finished upstairs right now so we plan to finish painting, install ceiling fans and new light fixtures in all the bedrooms and then have the carpet installed. Then we can start the twins nursery but it's a long way off yet and we only have 5-6 months at best to get everything done!

Change in due date!

Wow, I just got a phone call from one of my obstetrician's office to book my next ultrasound in 4 weeks. The weird part was that she kept telling me I was a week ahead and I kept saying well, I will be 13 weeks tommorrow and she said, actually, the Dr. has dated you a week ahead at this point (because the baby's are measuring large) so you will be 18 weeks at your next ultrasound instead of 17 weeks! My original due date was September 22nd and now it's Sept.15th!

My daughter measured a week ahead my entire first pregnancy but they never changed my due date as a result so I was surprised. I asked if they would tell us the genders at this next ultrasound and she said there are no promises but if he can tell, he will probably tell us if we want to know.....and we DO want to know!! If it was a singleton pregnancy, we were going to wait until delivery day to find out so it would be a surprise but with multiples on the way, we really need to be prepared since I probably won't leave the house for the first month...if not the first year!! lol. I want to make things as easy as possible because I am really worried about sleep deprivation and post partum hormones. I cried everyday for the first 2 weeks with my daughter....they were ALL HAPPY, BLISSFUL tears of course!!! I didn't even want to go to sleep the first week of her life because I didnt want to miss a mili-second of her life but you can only live off adrenaline for so long! lol. I was so utterly happy......there were a few, "Im so tired" tears mixed in there too but it was mostly euphoria and joy that brought on the water works! I know some Mom's know exactly what Im talking about. That, "all is perfect in the world feeling" lol.

Anyways, Im super psyched for our next ultrasound on April 13th, when we find out if it is going to be a couple of boys or two more girls to the clan! lol. I cant wait!!!!!

Research, research, research!!!

It never ends. Im researching twin pregnancies/complications, raising twins, minivans, twin support groups, twin freebies, searching craigslist religiously for things we need (eg.co-sleeper, 2nd car seat, etc) discounts for mom's with twins, twin facts and statistics.....it feels like all I do is research! It's so overwhelming when I sit back and make lists and think about all the things we need to prepare for these baby's and the vehicle situation is stressing me out too. I'm leaning towards a 2006 or 2007 white Toyota Sienna XLE but Im not sure I can find one within our budget. It will depend on what I can get for my 2006 Honda CR-V. I really want the leather interior since kids can be pukers in the car and cloth seats tend to smell over time as a result of spillage, vomit, sweat, tears, food, you name it!!! A ceiling mounted DVD player would be pretty awesome for 3 kids too!

I havnt really bought anything for the baby's yet because I want to know the genders before I purchase anything and also because I wanted to get past my first trimester before I purchased anything just in case.

I bought this fabulous "innobaby" device from a gal off craigslist. It's awesome!!! It's a stackable formula/snack case and it's prefect for my baby bag. If we ever go anywhere (which Im sure wont be often the first year, ha ha!), I can pack plenty of pre-measured formula for the twins' bottles and snacks for Brooklyn. This is such a cool invention! It beats the alternative of having to use multiple tupperware dishes or ziplocs for formula and snacks all over your diaper bag. This way it['s totally organized and you can choose how many compartments you need to bring with you.

Here is a link: I just think they are a brilliant little invention!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XY8jUIpwRsQ

Video Baby Monitor:

If there are any Moms out there looking for a video baby monitor (something I think is even more necessary with twins). I found a great website with ALL the reviews you need to make a decision as to what model you want to get. The #1 day/night video monitor runs $200! This review explains all the capabilities and limitations to the top 10 monitors on the market.

Here is the link to help you make your decision on a baby monitor:

http://baby-video-monitor-review.toptenreviews.com/

Can't catch a break....sick, sick, sick!

Just when I was getting over the food poisoning, I woke up the next day FULL of a nasty cold! I couldn't believe it! Between the food poisoning, being pregnant with twins and having them take what they need from me and then getting a cold, it sure felt like flu because I have nothing left!! Nothing!! I had spent 24 hours on the "porcelain" thrown and now while my immunity was shot-to-sh*t, I picked up my toddler's cold (which she brought home from day care!! awesome! grrrr!!!!). I had a headache for about 6 days in a row and I was also flat in bed or on the couch for 6 days straight! It was extremely difficult taking care of my daughter by myself while all of this was going on because hubby was away at a course all week (minus the day my friend/cousin helped me out) and my mom came to help me on Saturday but I went back to work yesterday and I still sound like a horse with a little bit of laryngitis and still feel like Im on my death bed. I'm hoping, wishing and praying that Im going to turn a corner any day now and have a great 2nd trimester!!!!! I want to put the 1st trimester behind me as I'm dying to feel human again and feel some joy! lol.

In all honesty, "twins" is a special thing and it's a blessing but it has been very stressful for my husband and I (especially because he has always been quite vocal and firm about only wanting two children). Finances are a huge concern when expecting multiples and while Im off work on maternity leave. We recently re-located back to the lower mainland which increased our fixed costs $900/month from where we used to live. I have heard diapers/formula & extras can run upwards 0f $400-$500/month with twins and since I will have 3 children under the age of 2 (OMG!!!), they will ALL be in diapers! Im hoping the twins will be fortunate enough to carry close to full term so Brooklyn can have her 2nd birthday party this August (08/14) before they get here and life becomes all about them for a while. As far as potty training goes, I have been advised by many not to rush my 19 month old into potty training just because we have twins on the way because many children will digress once the twins arrive and chaos sets in. I will however, have Brooklyn in her big girl bed come July or August and hope we can tackle that milestone before the baby's arrive! I tried to nap her in the her big girl bed yesterday for the first time but as soon as I left her room and shut the door, she leaped out of the toddler bed and was trying to get out?

One of our biggest concerns is not having enough time with our 19 month old daughter once the baby's arrive. She is the apple of our eye and it's a no-brainer that our time will be sooooooooo ridiculously limited with new born twins! We will have to set time aside for her every day but I think it's going to be hard on her initially. On the bright side, she is a very independant child already and quite "rough and tumble" so I think she may surprise us!

11 weeks +5 days- Food Poisoning!!!!!

I woke up last night at 2am feeling quite sick to my stomach which was unusual since I have been managing the nausea well by always keeping something in my stomach. I just figured I didnt eat enough that day so I went downstairs and made a piece of toast and downed a glass of chocolate milk and went back to bed.....(with a bucket at the bed side just in case). Sure enough, I woke up shortly after and started violently puking (amongst other things, lol) everything I had eaten that day.....I was sooooooo sick!! I woke up hubby and asked him to get me some water and a warm cloth and continued to throw up the rest of the night. The funny things is, he had something very similar 4 days before that and the only common denomenator between what we both ate was some buttered chicken sauce we both ingested (he was sick Friday/Saturday and I was sick Tuesday/Wednesday).

I was supposed to stay home with my daughter that day but thankfully my girlfriend offered to take her so I could rest (or at least keep puking without interuption, lol). All I had to do was drive her over there (which is only 5-7 blocks away) but once I got up and got Brooklyn dressed, I had to run to the bathroom again and then I had to lay down again because I was so weak. I was extremely dehydrated and could barely stand up so I was going to ask my neighbor/friend Erin if she could take her but Renee offered to come get her which worked out perfect. I went right back to bed with my bucket and waited until 8:30am to call my obstetrician because I wasnt sure how this was going to affect the twins in my belly. He said I should go to the hospital if I couldnt keep water down and said he would call and have me admitted to the maternity unit for re-hydration but I insisted I would wait it out a bit and see if things got better at home first. By 12 noon, I was only getting worse. My cousin came to take care of Brooklyn for the rest of the day (we picked her up at lunch time) and then she dropped me off at the hospital and then took B home for her afternoon nap.

I quickly registered and went straight up to the maternity unit at the local hospital and I was thinking.....please just give me my bolus and IV gravol and send me home but because I was so dehydrated, they couldnt find a vein to start the IV!!!! The first nurse tried poking me twice, dug around for a while (holy hurts!) but couldnt find a vein (they all shrivelled up). IV starts never bother me but these ones hurt so bad!! It didn't help they were using the largest gauge needle possible. A second nurse came in to try and start the IV and after 2 pokes and digs, another failed attempt. They wrapped my arms in warm blankets to try and get a vein to come to the surface but it didnt work. A third nurse came in and put in her two attempts and then finally they got the nursing team leader to come in and try who ended up using my good, juicy arterial vein (which is the one I asked them to use from the beginning but apparently the "lab" likes to use that vein and they could get yelled at if they used that one! Grrrrr. Stupid protocols! I have two of them afterall! They could have had the bolus infused an hour ago but no such luck so it took an additional hour to get my fluids/medication and then my hubby came to pick me up on his way home from work. It was a b-r-u-t-a-l 24 hours and I lost the 6 lbs I had gained this pregnancy!

9 week scare/bleeding!

I was 9 weeks along (sonogram photo is 9 weeks gestation), feeling like I had some sort of death sentence because I have never in my life felt like this before.....exhausted, fatigued, hormonal, emotional!!! I was going to bed at 7pm on a regular basis since I work almost full-time and chase after an 19 month most of the time, I am just spent come 3pm!

I was at the hospital working my regular day shift and all of a sudden I was standing in the hall and felt a huge gush of fluid running out of me! I ran to the bathroom and there was bright red blood everywhere! I had completely soiled myself. I was trying to stay calm but said, "Oh No!".

I cleaned myself up the best I could and then pulled aside an ER nurse I work with who told me to go lay down in an open bed immediately! They registered me as a patient for the 2nd time in 2 weeks! This was getting to be so stressful and emotionally taxing. I mean we all know the first 3 months of pregnancy is a bit of a waiting game but I had been heavily spotting daily and bleeding quite regluarily the entire month so my nerves were constantly on edge the entire time!

This however, was A LOT of blood and it wasnt stopping! I bled for about an hour straight! It was awful! The ER physycian I work with said this can be indicative of a threatened miscarriage but a pelvic exam and an ultrasound would help him determine what might happen but ultimately only time would tell! After I had my pelvic exam (I was forced to choose between two ER Docs I work with on a daily basis and of course I picked the one I work with less often....it's a little akward people when the Docs you talk shop, life, dogs, family and baby's with have to examine YOU (ie. ME) at some point! The DR told me my cervix was "fairly" closed so that was good but only an ultrasound was going to give me piece of mind that day. Luckily, they had time to squeeze me in for an urgent ultrasound that day. I was just praying the baby's hearts were still beating because by that time, I had spent 2 weeks researching twins and read plenty of articles on VTS (vanishing twin syndrome) and all the rest of it and since most miscarriages happen before 9 or 10 weeks gestation, I was feeling incredibly vulnerable!

Once I saw the baby's on the ultrasound I was blown away! I could see Baby A was almost dancing.....moving and shakin' and putting on quite a show for me (unbelievable) and Baby B was sound asleep like a bump on a log and didn't budge an inch! We could see that both hearts weren't only beating but had strong heart rates to boot! I was thinking....."great, they have opposite schedules already!" *sigh* ha ha. It was so comforting to see they were both okay!

Surprise Again! Your carrying TWINS!!!!

Feb.4th, 2011 (7 weeks ultrasound photo)

I was working my regular shift in the ER one morning but when I went to the bathroom and noticed an awful lot of blood (something that I never had with my first pregnancy) I was quite concerned so I told one of my co-workers (she was 8 months pregnant at the time and sadly had suffered 5 miscarriages prior to her current pregnancy so she knew a lot about pregnancy and bleeding etc.) and then we pulled aside one of the ER physician's we work with. Luckily there are some perks to working in the ER and within 2 hours I was laying on a gurney having my very first ultrasound at 7 weeks along to make sure there was a heart beat and to give me some piece of mind.

The ultrasound technician warned me she isn't really supposed to tell me anything good or bad. I told her all I wanted to see was a healthy heart beat. As soon as she put the probe to my belly, the heart beat came up right away (phew....but I couldn't see it yet) and she said, "yep, there's the heartbeat!"....followed by, "why don't you lay back and let me take some measurements and then I will show you the heartbeat when we're done!?". So I laid back and answered all her questions....."is this your first pregnancy?"..."no, my second"....."were you sick with the last pregnancy?", "nope, it was a piece of cake!".....then she told me she could see a large cyst on my ovary (she assumed I already knew about it because it was very large but I was not aware)....then she said they would keep an eye on it over the course of the pregnancy and further asked me, "have you been significantly more ill or tired this pregnancy?!"....."tired YES!!! Sick, No, why!???". I still had no idea where she was going with this as I had never even entertained the idea of multiples! So I asked her but already thought I knew the answer, "why? should I be more sick if I have a cyst?!".....she replied, "well no, but you would be because your carrying TWINS!"....."WHAT!!!!???????!?!?!? "That's tech humor right!?"......"no, Im serious, look, do you see the two heartbeats?......at that point I was staring at the floor, mouthing the word "TWINS!?!?!" to myself because I was sure she just said "TWINS!" I said something like, "are you sure it just doesn't appear as twins and maybe it's just not clear enough yet and then the moment of truth..... I looked up at the monitor and make no mistake!....there was one blob on the left and one blob on the right....it was clear as day!!! There really were two!

I was extremely overwhelmed and was literally shaking, teeth chattering, I felt cold, the whole bit ( I swear I went into shock) for almost 2 hours while all the ER nurses were congratulating me and telling me how great it was going to be and the ER doc I work with was laughing. No one could believe it...especially me!!! Here I was afraid I was losing one baby and as it turns out, I am having two!

I later discovered that subchorionic bleeds and spotting are much more common when carrying multiples. I just never thought in a million years that twins were in my future! Never! There is no family history anywhere but our twins are identical (they share one placenta) so that indicates they are not genetic but rather my egg split and simply gave us two miracles instead of one! ha ha.

Surprise, your pregnant! What!????!?

Here is the story of the first (there are a few) surprises this past January....

Originally hubby and I weren't planning on trying for a second baby until our daughter turned 2 this August....however, I was starting to feel the desire sooner than I expected but that being said, I was still on birth control and hubby wasnt budging on the TTC date (TTC=trying to conceive date)!

December was a busy month for the 3 of us.....lots of out of town family and back to back house guests. We had a fabulous Christmas with our family's and we were all so happy to be together (we hosted this year). That being said, there wasnt a whole lot of time for romance if you catch my drift, lol.

Which leads me to the shocking discovery of a positive pregnancy test, lol. I was out of town for a week, taking a course through my job this past January and was expecting my monthly visitor while I was away at the course. By mid-week I was missing my daughter so much that I drove home one night to see her. I thought it was odd that I hadnt got my period yet and remembered I had a few old, expired pregnancy tests under the sink from a few years back so I figured I would take one just to "rule it out"! I mean I know it only takes "one" time but come on!? .....What are the odds!?!?!?! There is no way I could be pregnant!

Truthfully, the odds were slim to none!! We weren't trying to get pregnant, there was only one opportunity/chance there (sorry babe, your probably thinking TMI! lol), I had taken most of my birth control pills that month (my toddler ran off with them and it took me a few days to figure out they weren't on the bathroom counter (in a child proof container of course-and I missed a few but I didnt think it really mattered since we were soooo busy that month and there was nothing happening if you know what I mean! lol.

I took the expired pregnancy test that Wednesday night and it read positive within seconds of taking it! I couldn't believe it so I waited until the next morning before I had to leave for my course again (also when your urine is highly concentrated with HCG first thing in the AM) and then took the second test and it too read positive !!! OMG!!!!!!!! This is impossible I thought!!! I was scared Chris was going to be upset because we had just talked about baby making and he was very clear he was not ready to start trying yet. I wasnt going to see him for 2 more days (he was working nights the night I came home so we didn't see each other), so I had to keep it to myself......and I had NO IDEA how to tell him anyways!

When I got home that Friday, I simply asked him to come down stairs so we could talk and with tears in my eyes, I told him we were pregnant. He couldnt understand why I was crying. He said, "really!???"....."seriously!??"....."no way!"...."why are you crying?". I just didnt want him to feel pressure or disapointment even though we had planned to have another baby at some point and technically it was only about 6 months earlier than we planned for (and of course it's a blessing hands down!) but with a fairly recent move (re-location actually) and both having started new jobs, I figured he might feel dissapointment, stress or pressure and I didnt want him to feel that way. His reaction was perfect though and he made me feel much more relaxed about it which made me able to finally get excited about it!

In fact, I think his ego inflated a bit (it's a man thing Im sure!) because I reminded him about what a "quiet" month we had so-to-speak, and how I was taking my birth control pills (except confessed of course about the 4 pills I missed when Brooklyn ran off with my pill pack).....something along the lines of, "Wow! I must have strong swimmers" came out of his mouth and he sat up a little straighter!!! Ha ha, MEN! *rolling my eyes* lol. He's such a cave man sometimes, ha ha!